Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Freestyle Piece: Heavensent - 3/23/10

"I know there is a God, you're made in his image...I'm sure there's a Heaven, I can imagine you in it...I sought His grace, saw your face, and knew I had arrived...I need your light in my life, as long as I'm alive...your halo never leaves you and your beauty's like a preview...your soul is pure gold, it's like you're made out of my dreams you...you brighten my soul, light up my life...won't you be my wife..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: I Think I'm In Love - 3/23/10

"Where does friendship end and love begin, I can't find the line...when can I stop thinking of you, I can't find the time...you're always in my dreams, I don't know what this means, can somebody tell me...you're everything in my eyes, can't tell any lies, can somebody help me...I think I'm in love, that's what it feels like...I think I'm in love, it just feels so right...that's what I believe, I don't wanna leave..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Losing Our Grip - 3/23/10

"Do I call you back or do I leave it alone...do I blame you, or do I own up to my wrongs...do I put you out there and make you look bad...or do I solemnly look back on all the chances I've had...all of these choices and decisions are confusing...I'm just fighting a battle I'm losing...we stepped out on faith and now we've started to slip...we never had love from the start, and now we're losing our grip..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Quicksand - 3/23/10

"You have a smile that lights up the room, and makes me swoon...and if your touch was at the bottom of a cliff, I'd gladly jump to my doom...your body's so amazing and your grace is self-effacing, how do you do it? I just don't know and there's nowhere for me to go, I better get used to it...you're so wonderful and beautiful, you're such a keeper...your love is like quicksand, everything I do sinks me deeper..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Foundation For Love - 3/23/10

"I haven't known you long but it feels like we're best friends...it feels like our relationship picks up where the best ends...conversation is elation, determination through tribulation...honesty over lies and in your eyes I see the beauty of creation...I enjoy being your friend but now it's time for more...you and I need to be 'we,' and of that I'm sure...let's build on trust...create a foundation for love..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Doors Wide Open - 3/23/10

"In and out my life like my heart's a revolving door...every time you leave, I feel worse than before...but when you come back and hold me in your arms...I swear that you can never do me wrong...I know this situation seems so unnecessary...but my life without you just seems so scary...I believe you'll get it together, and that's what I'm hopin'...one day you'll come back for good, my doors are wide open..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: To Love A Parasite - 3/23/10

"My feelings run so deep...but rather than an ocean of love, I'm in an ocean of the tears I weep...I've given more than I ever would...but you've taken more than you ever should...I've put up with more than I ever could because before you I never stood...but now I'm on my own two feet...our future is too bleak...I'm just going to leave, I'm done crying at night...I can't deal with you, I refuse to love a parasite..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: First-class Trip To Love - 3/23/10

"Baby you need a vacation, I just booked the ticket; You're not going anywhere but you're gonna feel so distant; I'm your one-way ticket on a flight of ecstasy; You'll be in the land of passion while you're laying next to me; Your body's going to a place that it has never been; Once I take you there, you'll be begging to go back again; Let's take a first-class trip to love; We won't come back til you’ve had enough.."


-A. Lewis

Monday, March 22, 2010

A Brief Philosophy: Success - 3/22/10

"When one follows through, despite life's undulations and tribulations, despite the fickle nature of the mind and the desires that undermine, despite the naysayers and game-players, despite the cheaters and nonbelievers, despite the liars and decriers, and fulfills a dream, that is success; success in taking it from the mind, through the heart, to the physical world. To live your dreams is to be successful."


-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Be Indefatigable - 3/22/10

"Life is like an assiduous boxer. Furious, the only reprise in its onslaught is the time between rounds, the time in which we lay our heads. The battle can seem unceasing, victory unconscionable; however, we must be indefatigable. No matter the flurries we face, we must persevere. For life's only defense is its offense; to try is to fight, to be happy is to dominate, to be successful is to win."


-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Livers and Thinkers - 3/22/10 (from 3/19/10)

"In this life, there are livers and thinkers. Livers enjoy with later regrets; thinkers regret with later joys. Livers never hesitate to act, but are rarely prepared to react; thinkers are rarely prepared to act, simply because they're so busy planning how to react. Livers ask, 'what now?' Thinkers ask, 'now what?' The line of demarcation is marked by antipodes...one of life's journeys is reaching middle ground."


-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Saving You From You - 3/22/10 (from 3/18/10)

"The most difficult thing to do in life is to save oneself from oneself, for it is one thing to make a bed and lay in it, and another to get out of one; especially when the bed has become comfortable. The only alarm clock is the ringing bell of the will to do and be better...friends, family, and even the Powers that Be can attempt to awaken you; however, you could just turn over. YOU have to get up..."


-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Finding Oneself - 3/22/10 (from 3/18/10)

"In life, the goal is not to find yourself; the person you find is person you're looking for, rather than than who you really are. The goal is to recognize oneself, to be able to say that you are YOU, with no hesitation, no qualms, none of that. Attempting to find yourself is like looking into a mirror and trying to see if you appear how you wish you would; it won't happen, and you won't see yourself."


-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Maintenance Is Key - 3/22/10 (from 3/17/10)

"A person will only care as much about your heart as you do, and this is why they are fragile; the task of maintaining that care falls squarely on your shoulders. If one does not tend to the heart like a keepsake, dusting, renewing, and keeping it away from those who do not value it, it shall depreciate...which will decrease the quality of the love you receive. Maintenance is key; depreciation occurs silently."


-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: The Journey of Progress - 3/22/10 (from 3/15/10)

"The toughest times in life are transition periods, points in time where the rushing tides of change sweep us away from a beach of familiarity to a sea of uncertainty. It is arduous because nothing is as rooted as a thought set in stone, or a pattern ingrained through repetition. At these times, we are to swim with the current of optimism until we reach the island of fresh happiness; the journey is called progress."


-A. Lewis

Saturday, March 20, 2010

A Poem: Night, Life - 3/20/10

You continue to drown in the nightlife
Hooked on the drinks and blinded by the lights
An addict of adulation, missing maturation,
You can't seem to get your mind right...
Even though it's a deal with the devil,
It's about getting signed right?
Getting paid to be mentally laid and physically played...
But it's about "getting mine" right?
Models wear clothes rather than bear those
Every time you shake it or get naked,
You show you don't love yourself; everyone there knows...
But they'll leave you in the dark
Leave you confuzzled because that business is a puzzle
And you're just playing your part.
The only money to be made is the money that is laid,
The money that is thrown to make you think you hold your own
The money that is flaunted so reputations seem to be vaunted...
Only in this place are "getting wet" and being "rained on" two separate happenings
You're the only model that can still eat foods that are fattening
But that's not the problem.
Model is a title earned, not a title given
A title to work in, not to live in
Work and life have become a blurred mess
Especially when they buy the specialty and have you a slurred mess
Heard yes, but taken so lightly
As you need an abbreviation for the inebriation that takes place nightly
So rather than be Falsely Understood and Classified as Kinky
You give in and fuck.
He promised exposure in return
But did not say in what fashion...
He tells his friends, the rumors begin, all the guys want some action.
You're bombarded with money, promises, and gifts
Keys to a suite, new heels on your feet, and expedient lifts
They would oil you up, make those legs shine
All you had to do was pose then open those up at bedtime...
Used to moving slow, you started living life at the redline
Fast money, fast cars, a life with no deadline...
But it did have an expiration date.
You let too many men eat off your plate
Simply because you had a greed you couldn't sate
Money was never worth attention
You would do anything just to get a mention...
That business has no pension
So you're back where you started, partying and wishing
Hoping for your chance to be recognized.
You caught up to the fast life
Only to have it outrun you in the end
So now when you're in VIP, hugging up trying to get access to the card behind the ID,
Trying to get noticed so you can be in the next video for So Icey,
Maybe you'll understand why life has been so icy;
Cold beverages, cold hearts,
Cold money in the cold dark,
That's the nightlife for you...
Your broken life is its cold mark.

-A. Lewis

Monday, March 15, 2010

A Freestyle Piece: We're Not All The Same - 3/15/10

"I apologize if I generalize, but these general eyes see general lies every day, coming from every way. Not all women are the same, but many do the same things, entertain the same flings. I'd like one that's not of that group, but I often feel out of the loop when they say boys that scout are of the same troop. Y-chromosomes don't cause parity but those X's (ex's) seem to be interfering with your clarity."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Please Mature - 3/15/10

"Trust is the foundation of love...but if you won't let me establish it, what will be above? Nothing will come of our interaction...if your fears and past tears dilute our interaction...what was robust interest has now begun to languish...my sincerity and clarity have met your anguish...the meeting went badly...you lost who you are in who you scar, sadly...I sure hope you mature..."


-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Payback - 3/15/10

"I was so careless...but at the time, I could've cared less...the risks were overt, the danger glaring...I didn't equate lascivious and precipitous, so on the side of caution there was no airing...defenses were dropped, truth was given...yet lies were all I received, my heart was so deceived, it was pain I couldn't live in...thanks for my breaking heart...your kind will pay, I'll leave each with an aching heart..."

-A. Lewis

Friday, March 12, 2010

A Poem: She And I, The Tale of American And a Martyr - 3/12/10 (from unknown date)

Life for me, means strife for me

As I strive to be what I contrive to be

But it seems as though America lied to me

Portraying me and my kind to be fastidious

And keeping us in dwellings so insidious

It’s hideous, the truth I mean

Because I’ve seen how obscene

She can be, She can see but refuses to speak

He r tongue never sheds due light on my plight

My night is one of fear, and She knows why…

See,

I’m a brother born to a single mother

Mom and dad lusted for,

But couldn’t stand each other

Born where else but the hood,

Taught that what was bad was really good

And that what I shouldn’t I should

So my surroundings reared me

Liquor and dollar stores were the only thing near me

Clearly that was all I was meant to know

Before it ever got cold I learned about snow

The white was right and by rite I was to deal it

Apparently my father used to feel it,

Fillet the edges, and make it look nice

My block made my block look twice

Cooked more than my mom, though I never fed her

Couldn’t give her any of my dough ‘cuz she knew of my fetter,

My cheddar attracted all kinds of hoodrats,

I was a straight-A student making good stacks

But soon my veins became pavement,

My heart a stop sign

I couldn’t keep pulling my people down,

Not with a sound mind

It was the books or streets,

Although I had a white soul

Wanted to do right by mom,

So the white sold,

And I put the pen to the paper

SAT scores out the roof, ready to tell the hood ‘see you later’

But the white bothered me,

White men on the beat drawing white men in the street,

White stains in the hall of my apartment,

Girls who made those headed to the WIC department

This place, brought tears to my face

Bred to believe that this is all we can achieve?

The white envelope held my acceptance letter

Told mom, that when I got done, we would live better

Next day she got robbed, next week lost her job

And so it came again: streets or the books

I remember how all of the brothers gave me dirty looks

Because they knew that I knew what success took,

I went, back to streets

Rather than going to college rocking some pleats,

Every bullet that went by, brought a tear to my eye

Because the next day another mother had to ask why,

So I did just enough, boy it was rough

Some days just one decision away from the handcuffs,

And as I did these dubious deeds, I realized just how dubious these,

Pernicious police were, lying in wake just to cause another wake,

Instigating instead of investigating, they were just dealers with badges

Contracted to make sure we stayed as uneducated hood asses,

Making deals with snitches, using them then turning them in to be jail bitches

Hell hitches onto you when you’re on these streets, the sins you commit

Are known to permit addictions of the worst kind, but I was the first kind

To quit it all, because I refused to be used to make my brothers fall

The cops didn’t solve crimes because they needed us on the street at all times,

To keep each other down, motivation I had found and so I acted

Bought a suitcase and packed it, decided to go to school and be the next Obama

To save my people and take care of my mama,

But She wouldn’t have it…

She knew of the damage I could do,

And wouldn’t let it happen

She realized that I didn’t want to ‘make it’ from rapping

Nor did I want to continue trapping

I wanted better, and would not let Her,

Keep me down

So She sent them to beat me down

As I made my last rounds,

I was on my last stop and got stopped by a cop

Tried to get me to be 10-cents,

Said if I did it I’d get a sixpence,

But when I refused he got tense, shoved me against a fence,

I moved my hands back in preparation for the ‘cuffs

He would use this as “he was getting tough”

So he tased me, I didn’t want to be shocked to death so I fought back

Then he blazed me.

The officer resigned in silence,

The hood erupted in violence,

Perpetuating her stereotypes,

All of those nights, I didn’t know it,

But this was my destiny

Things ended the best for me:

I was an instrument of change,

Sent to open eyes

The cops can be dirty

And can fabricate lies

They keep us down

And keep our souls going up

But after more stories like mine

We may one day have had enough.

-A. Lewis

A Poem: Untitled, Love - 3/12/10

We have a love deep enough to drown in...
And if that were to happen,
Your arms are what I want to be found in...
Your eyes are what I want to be crowned in....
The art of loving you is what I want to be sound in...
A perfect lover isn't found, but made
So shower me with your affection,
Grow me so I may be your shade...
Allow me to be your bastion of rejuvenation
As you take my heart for reclamation...
See, when I love I love deeply
Which means I can get seriously hurt
Girls like to use guys with such views
So what was once a flower-filled lea became a patch of dirt.
I had very little heart left...but in spite of my heart's health,
I pledged to give it as though it was well...
And then came you...you were beyond anything that came to mind
Amazing, prodigious, you defied any word I tried to find
I saw the love you had to offer, so I mined
Digging in myself to find,
Viable recompense for this woman that seemed heaven-sent
But before I could finish the excavation
From my heart came an exclamation...
Euphonious melodies began to play
As you were on my mind all throughout the day
Before I could even find the man I wanted to offer you
You'd awakened him, and even had him frolicking too
As he and my heart skipped along to the beat
I knew that it was you that made me complete
You wanted to learn from my strengths and better my flaws
I wanted to reciprocate, and love you with no pause...
And so a stream of attraction became a river of affection,
Which raced into an ocean of love...
And now that we are at sea,
Know that I will forever be your lifeguard
Whether life be easy, or times get hard.

-A. Lewis

Thursday, March 11, 2010

A Brief Philosophy: Self-preservation - 3/11/10 (from 3/10/10)

"Self-preservation has given way to exploitation...in the interest of self, people are willing to milk others for all they are worth, without the slightest inkling of a scruple. Vulnerability has been lost...men now want to be manly, and women want to be independent...and as these labels are filled, love is killed...vulnerability is love's conduit; to lose it is not only to queer love, but to preclude it as well..."

-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Men Aren't the Same...It's Your Standards - 3/11/10 (from 3/8/10)

"What good are high standards for a man if you have low standards for yourself..." That's how women end up thinking all men are the same. They want the best, yet accept the worst...and because their standards are high, they think they're dating high caliber; I'm sorry, but 'sexy' doesn't mean high caliber. Unreal standards will get you unreal men, aka LIARS."

-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Understanding - 3/11/10 (from 3/8/10)

"In life, an understanding is easy to come by, yet hard to attain. This is because so many fall prey to the innate personal bias we all have. When we have epiphanies, we come by an understanding. It's easy to accept, since it comes from the Universe herself. However, when we must grasp one, our bias can taint, ruin, or curtail the flow of information, unless effaced by cognizance of relativity."

-A. Lewis

March Quotes - 3/11/10

"The greatest travesty in life is not living up to one's own potential...for the only reason that may occur is by one's own doing. The greatest obstacles are our own, for we know our weaknesses best, yet are afraid to know our strengths as intimately."

-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Slipping Through the Cracks - 3/11/10 (from 3/4/10)

"I told you I love you but you didn't believe it...every time I come home you're always leavin...you don't even answer to your nickname...I call, text; you ignore me just the same...I'm running outta options, I'm caught up in a panic...I just don't know what to do, I'm just so lost and frantic...you keep getting further, I can't pull you back...it's like holding on to sand, our love is slipping through the cracks..."

-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Birds - 3/11/10 (from 3/4/10)

"Birds are paragons for success. When it is time for them to spread their wings(go for their dreams), they jump; either they fly or die, no hesitation. They gracefully rise to the top, through flapping (working hard) at the right times. When the wind (adversity) blows against them, they persevere; should that fail, they rest in places only they can reach (enjoy what they've achieved, for the time being)."

-A. Lewis

Thursday, March 4, 2010

A Freestyle Piece: Music - 3/1/10

"I'm in love with a woman, her name is music...she knows what I like, and how to use it...she can get my adrenaline pumping, but then soothe it...she puts a hold on my soul and I don't know how to lose it...if she offered me a way out, I doubt I'd choose it...she knows she's my greatest weakness, and continues to abuse it...yet she's my greatest pleasure, and I won't refuse it..."

-A. Lewis

Monday, March 1, 2010

A Freestyle Piece: It's On You... - 2/28/10 (from 2/26/10)

"Lady...how can you put down a man that you never knew? Well when you're stuck in the past, things are never new. Scars are like clouds, so the skies are never blue...you got played, in those houses of cards you stayed, acting like the wind never blew. To get between your thighs, guys told lies, so now you think men are never true...they only said what was going through your head; the person to blame is forever you."

-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Crack Music - 2/28/10 (from 2/26/10)

"Music is crack, and everyone's trying to be a dealer; why you're trying, inside a Black woman is dying, and only you can heal her. But instead, you get head, and use her for pleasure; unaware that your treatment is her worth's measure. You get addicted and end up on the streets; she ends up successful yet alone, with no faith in any man she meets. You're all about the white, man...so she ends up with a White man."

-A. Lewis

A Brief Philosophy: Square One - 2/28/10 (from 2/25/10)

"People tend to model themselves after what they think someone wants; to become a desire manifest makes you not necessary, but instead a thrill temporary." It is inane to think that appealing to someone's desires will make you of any importance. All you will do is appeal to the carnal side of the mind, becoming another sin to be chased. And upon capture, your value shall diminish, leaving you at square one."

-A. Lewis