A Freestyle Piece: The Bed - 12/15 (from 12/13)

"You can lay in a bed, but you can't sleep...every man you f*ck is another reason for you to weep...sheets wet with pleasure, pillows drenched with tears...that makes for a cold bed, shunning every whimper it hears...you want more for yourself, but the bed knows you best...keeping you from putting the past to rest...now you feel alone, since he's all you got...seems like all you can do is give him all you're not..."

-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Scorn's Maze, Hurt's Scars - 12/15 (from 12/13)

"I left my desires at the beginning...wall. I try to do right, but there's no winning...wall. I don't have much energy left to fight...I may just leave this as some other man's ship to right...your insecurities run an insurmountable range, while your past brings up walls that continually change...your past is your present, which leaves no future...men left those scars but no one man can be the suture."

-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Come Real - 12/15 (from 12/12)

"I want to love you past your pain...do more than make it rain...I'm not chasing fame...I just want to change your last name...I'm trying to come real...and be honest about how I feel...I'm trying to come real...so I can close the deal. You're used to lies and dirty banter...I'm here to show you real candor...What I present is unusual, like something you've never known...It's time for you to meet a man that's grown."

-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Chess - 12/15 (from 12/12)

"We're simply pawns in love's game...whether moving like rooks or bishops, the goal is the same...I don't want to be your white knight, but instead your black king...so I need to make that move for my black queen...who else could my soulmate be? You're the only one to ever checkmate me...checkmate me..."

-A. Lewis

A Freestyle Piece: Interference - 12/15 (from 12/9)

"I was in the clear, I was doing just fine...then something happened that threw off my mind...thoughts weren't the same, they lost their coherence...I could no longer focus, your heart was running interference. There was no more me, it was all about we...I lost view of the present looking forward to what could be...the shrouds over my heart lost their adherence...I lost control, your heart was running interference."

-A. Lewis

A Philosophy: Differences - 12/15 (from 12/8)

"Men are simply arduous, while women are arduously simple. This is why when the 'feeling out' process is difficult, but love is a perfect fit.Women tend not to realize that men, while simple on the surface, are very complicated...they need to be needed and accepted, which impacts much of what they do. Men tend not to realize that women while complicated on the surface, are simple at heart...they just want to be loved, which also impacts what they do. Men desire the acceptance of fellow men, which causes their perceived stupidity, see 'passing up Ms. Right for Ms. Right Now.' Men also have to deal with their hormones, aka the 'other head.' That alone causes problems. Most importantly men need to be needed...they love to feel important, to feel as though they are in control. This causes the most problems. Women on the other hand, have to deal with problems all stemming from their desire to be loved. When they get hurt, they believe they'll never be loved, and turn to either degrading themselves (becoming a whore), or holding it against all guys. When they can't find love, they become impatient, either running in and out of relationships or simply staying away from them. Most importantly, when love presents itself, they typically don't know how to handle it, since they've likely gone through one or more of the aforementioned problems. These differences make the 'feeling out process' difficult, yet make love a perfect fit. The contradictory property of this relationship is what makes it so dynamic...one is the antithesis of the other, yet these antipodes mesh once given time to connect. The key to having them coalesce though, is understanding. You must understand the mindset of the person you are pursuing, and allow for it to change, grow, and most importantly, err. If you can understand the reasons behind someone’s actions, you are one step closer to being able to come together with that person. We are all born with flaws…our goal is not to find someone flawless, but to find someone whose flaws complement our own. Quote that, believe it, live by it.”

-A. Lewis

December Quotes

"A calm person is not one that is devoid of problems, but rather one that accepts them and is confident in his/her ability to handle them."

"To silence a voice that rings loudly is pointless; it shall ring on, to soon take residence in the hearts and minds of those that can harmonize with it."

"Strength of character is the fortitude it takes to stand against the gales of life."

"One of our greatest follies is to attempt to define greatness; to be great is to have no definition at all."

"To protect and to defend are two different things...the country that so confuses or even convolutes the two will be doomed to have a misguided military and will forever contribute to the greatest evil in the world: the notion of strength as a means of power, fear as influence, violence as a quietus."

"Somewhere out there, far beyond society and understanding, lying at the end of an expedition that is all too demanding, is greatness. Forged of unwavering tenacity and adversity infernal, the path is not to be sought; it is internal. It is not a destination, but instead a home; reserved for those that exceed the world's expectations while meeting their own."


-A. Lewis